Surgery

so here's the update on the finger...

I HAVE TO HAVE SURGERY!!!

i didn't cry when i broke it but i cried all day on sunday because apparently lortab makes me super emotional. i'm on percaset right now which just makes me jittery but i prefer that to crying and naseated. apparently the break is "unstable" so they have to put pins in it and maybe even screws. I'm calling my current cast the lobster claw because it's this giant pink thing with just two fingers and my thumb sticking out. i'll tell you the story about how i broke it after lunch. and i'll send pictures of the lobster claw too. an elder told me today that in six months from now I will look back on this and know that i am 100% committed to my mission because I can make it through broken bones and my first ever surgery on my mission. Apparently i just need to be humbled a little bit more.

so surgery is on monday, i won't know what time until friday when they make the appointment. I'm not going to lie, I'm a little scared. so if Ben or Melissa or mom could be there I would really appreciate it. I'll send the details later. I might just hop on the computer really quickly on Friday to tell you the details of when and where for monday. also, none of my sweaters or blazers will fit over this cast so if someone could send me a chunky sweater or just something warm that can fit over the cast that would be great.

they are doing the surgery to put pins and maybe screws in my finger and then i will have a cast over that for four weeks. then they will take the pins out and recast it and then they will start to do therapy to get mobility back. hopefully this doesn't set me ack in terms of going into the mission field.

I'm really trying to stay strong. I only cried on ssunday and I'm blamning that on the lortab and seeing a certain someone drive by the temple as I was walking back to the mtc. please pray. and pray that my companion can handle me these next few weeks. She's been an angel, especially to someone who hates getting or asking for help.

i recieved a priesthood blessing on sunday night and I know I am supposed to be here. I know I can get through all of this but it won't be as easy as I thought. I am optimistic though and I know this is just the Lord molding me into who I am supposed to become.

I seriously loved talking to mom and dad on saturday night and it was the best field trip ever. it was seriously Miss Frizzle style fieldtrip. After the ER our driver had to go to Smith's (on a saturday night. it was packed and I was a little high on drugs and stoked to be there) and then we went to rite-aid for more drugs. it was a party. Sunday was rough. Like, toughest day here so far. I just keep telling myself I can do this with the Lord's help and I know I can.

so yes, I broke my finger trying to spike the volleyball. Elder Reed set it for me and my finger just got caught in the ball. He seriously feels so bad but I'm glad it was him out of all people because he's the elder that I seriously think of like a little brother to me.

Please keep sending me dear elders. They get me through the day. Mom, thanks so so much for the cupcakes, my district loved them. and the trader joes package came at the perfect time. I won't be writing very many letters back just because I'm still learning to write with my right hand but I'll really try to. Also, I'm sorry if this letter isn't very funny and doesn't make any sense. I'm pretty jittery on the drugs and it's a little hard to think and type with one hand. Pray that I don't get held back at the MTC.

also, tell Chochy that I have LOVED her letters! I think she wins for best letter writer. She is so dedicated to writing me letters every week and during the week too. I'll try to write her a letter. also, new mission rule is that you can email anyone that's not in your field and so I think none family members can email me now if you want to send them my email address. check with bekah thought about that. i can only read them on tuesday. so next tuesday you'll be getting an update on how the surgery went. mom, if you could call either the doctor or the mtc if a family member can be there I would really appreciate that. I love my companion but obviously i would love a family member there instead.

ok, i'll try to get on later today too.

 

i love you all! I'm just going to keep kicking satan in the face! hopefully i can call you after the surgery, but i might be pretty out of it.

sis. d